Monthly Archives: October 2010


Just What Nobody Wanted

I’ve been thinking over the last year (it has been almost a year now since I’ve had my wonderful diagnosis of RA) and what I’ve learned.  I think the biggest thing I have learned is that it is exactly what … Continue reading


On Stress

Okay… I’m so totally ready for just a few days without stress.  Tonight, I’m thinking I will just pretty much be satisfied with curling up with the afghan that my mommy made me a few years ago (I don’t think … Continue reading

going nuts

I shouldn’t really go walking alone in the daylight when I’m in a contemplative mood, it takes entirely too long to make time and get to where I’m going, but there you go…

I was walking to pick up Amandya at school.  It’s fall.  I passed a field that a guy on a tractor was mowing (brush hogging) and the smell hit me and took me back to September back home.  The hay, the ragweed, all of the drying brown smells crept into my head and crawled around in there.  Wow.  Deep breaths of memories.  The only thing that was really really missing was ragged robins and queen anne’s lace.  We don’t have those.

I was walking under big wide oak trees (live oaks here for the most part), walking over acorns (oak nuts) and remembering.

When I was little, we went camping… Pymatuning when I was really really young, Kooser off and on for years.  At Kooser they had acorns scattered when we went the last camping trip of the fall.  Not the skinny little acorns like the live oaks have; a few were narrower, but most were big fat acorns.  Chocolate brown and the lids stayed on them tightly.

I wasn’t typically allowed to use a pocket knife.  It was probably a good thing that I wasn’t, I was a total klutz.  That hasn’t changed a whole awful lot. But on certain occasions, like at a picnic table when I was bored camping, I got to use a small one.

I was bored.  I usually read or played or threw stones and sticks into the creek, but sometimes boredom was there… and so was my imagination.

Do you know, there are so many things that you can make out of acorns?

You can make a plate out of the cap if you can pry it off.  The bigger acorns have better caps for this because they are much more flattened out.

A bowl, then, can be made out of the cap-less acorn, if you dig the meat out of the center.  You can get the bowl to sit without tipping over if you are very careful cutting off the little bump on the bottom.  Bowls are harder than plates because the edges of the acorn are not very thick and can split easily.  You have to take your time and be patient.

You can make a pipe to pretend to smoke if you start by making a bowl and then drill (with the just tippy tippy point of the knife) a hole in one side that you can thread a maple stick through.  Maple is important because everyone knows that the only kind of stick you can safely roast hot dogs on or marshmallows on is a maple stick… so the only kind of safe stick for the stem of a pretend pipe is a maple stick.

I wonder what kind of stick people here use… they don’t have maple sticks and most trees don’t have nice straight sticks like really good hot dog sticks are.

If  you are really bored and really ready to play let’s pretend, you can make a whole tea party with plates and bowls and cups… you can carve spoons and knives out of maple sticks (forks are way harder) and spend the rest of the afternoon pretending to have a party for elves and fairies.

Yeah, I know, this speaks worlds about me…

Sometimes a walk is just a walk.  Just a way to get from one place to another or just a way to get some exercise and get healthy.  Other times, a walk is an adventure, taking you on a trip far further than the one that your feet are taking.


On Not Giving Up What You Love…

I was wasting time this morning waiting for my work computer to load and be all happy and I found this in RA Warrior’s listing… The Goal Is Not Perfection.  Don’t give up the things you love… It is linked … Continue reading


A Whole Different Reason To Wear Purple and I Let Everyone Down…

Okay, I will admit that, today, I was a bit entirely too preoccupied with my own problems today.  Today was my one month appointment in ‘celebration’ of taking my methotrexate injections.  I was thinking entirely about how my shots were … Continue reading



It’s o-dark-thirty.  I’ve been up for over an hour and I can’t get back to sleep.  “Little People Big World” is on the television.  There is a train going through down on the tracks.  The cuckoo clock just sang it’s … Continue reading


Quiet Weekend Ending

Sitting curled up on the bed, dog and nook by my side.  I have a headache this evening but nothing that a nap won’t fix… but I’m totally loving the book The Bucolic Plague and will probably read for at … Continue reading


Strawberry Sunrise

I’m sitting here contemplating the clear plastic box of strawberries that I’ve been munching down on. I know it is a sill thing to be thinking about (or asking) when you are middle aged… but have you ever thought about … Continue reading



I’ve been watching Everest: Beyond the Limit lately on Planet Green.  It fascinates me.  It irritates me.  It is amazing.  Don’t get me wrong… I have the utmost respect for the people who train for months and years to be … Continue reading

Am I Weird?

Yes, I understand that it is an ENTIRELY rhetoric question.  That I’m weird is a given.  Sometimes I just am reminded HOW weird that I am.  Often it is in the library where I realize just how left of center my taste in just about anything and everything is.  Today it is wandering aimlessly (as the house sleeps and the squirrel sleeps on the floor at the foot of my bed) through finding free music download albums…

Music from the middle east

turkish hits

scandanavian gold

Four Quarters – 20/20 World Vision