Monthly Archives: February 2011



I’ve been thinking a lot about beginnings, my beginnings.  I know that everyone is more than the sum of all of the things that went into where they are now.  I know though, that all of what came before does … Continue reading

Loving Enbrel

I am tired, but I’m feeling so much better.  The shots aren’t comfortable but they are so worth it.  My wrist is being weird, but I think its weirdness is more because it is what is is… my boo boo wrist.


feet feet feet

You tend to fixate on the things that you think about a lot.  That has to be why feet and shoes have begun to become so interesting.  Because I think so much and so often about the smooshy-ness that has … Continue reading


Half Marathon… The Day After…

Sitting on the back porch at home.  Working from home.  I’m sore, achey… but I’m in better shape than last year.  I can actually make it in and out of the bathtub all by myself and I can actually get … Continue reading

Marathon Morning


The city quietly comes alive.  Skinny boy… Complete with the crud from our house… Is checking bags for now and will start handing out medals at 8.  There are SO many people yet it is amazingly quiet.

In a croud of 20000 runners… I am all alone

An RA geek looks at the half marathon Part 1

It was suggested that it is a good idea to stay as active as possible.  It was also suggested that “running” may not be the best idea in all RA cases (or Pilate’s for that matter).  The half seemed doable.  The rheumatologist seemed to be okay with this as long as you’re careful.

It was only three months after diagnosis… it was scary… it was really really scary.  Yoga class had been going on for only a month and it was valentines day and adrenaline was high.  So was my RA.  I was immensely happy that at least Adam went with me and he even volunteered at the event.   It did him good.  He realized that people don’t always judge you just by what they see.

I finished.  I almost literally drug myself across the finish line, but I finished.  I was in SO much pain at the time that I could have cried.  Adam drove home.

The high point of the race was getting to see the city at eye level and getting to see things that go unnoticed… seeing people pushing as hard as everyone else was pushing.  It became goals to see the mileage signs and to see who in the same race kept pace with whom.

Today starts this year’s actual event deal.  It is the Marathon Expo.  I have my fanny pack all ready to go.  Purple dry fit long sleeved “under” shirt, my Epilepsy Awareness shirt, my running pants, my wicking socks and my Nike’s are folded on the end of the bed.  Camera ready, batteries charged (even the extra one) and the memory card empty.  Pictures will be posted.

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People At The Expo

People at the Expo, there to buy stuff… there to pick up their bibs… there to experience the experience… Interesting.  Got greek yogurt for breakfast tomorrow and munchy bars for in the ‘race’ … probiotic drink stuff (it is supposed to help with the immune system…. I know that they mean for ‘normal’ people who take the stuff right after the race… but I’m all for improved immune system.

Where the Expo Was

This is the event center where the expo is.  It was rainy… Guess who managed to fall up the wet curb in the mud… good thing the camera is water proof and shock proof.  Felt like a graceful dork.  8 people ran to help me up.  Knee hurts from falling.  Wrist hurts from trying to catch myself falling.  Grace.

town from the hill where we parked...

Shot from where we parked.  Narrow picture of the sky line.

The rain is supposed to end today.  This is a good thing.  now… wish me luck.



All About Me

I’ve been following the blog of someone who is doing BILLBOARD sized wonderful things.  Person in question has also dissed my trying to do anything more grand or lasting than worship at the shrine of said person (yeah, I know… … Continue reading

The Hottest Fires

The hotrest fires make the strongest steel… I wonder if the same thing applies to peoples nature… Those wo go through the hottest fires turn out strongest…..


Feeling Human

Okay… it has been a LONG week.  This morning my Tamiflu is all gone.  My flu is down to sniffles and a mild ache that might just be sinuses. I was sure I was going to end up getting a … Continue reading

My RA Flu Story

Okay… not that anyone is getting as sick of this flu thing as I am… but now that I’m kind of feeling semi human again… it is time to pull together some kind of logical series of events.  Maybe someone will read it and learn from my adventure.

Yeah… I’m feeling more human… it is an adventure…

Wednesday I was feeling like I had a cold… a little congestion… kind of yukky… nothing big… just a cold.  Probably not.  Ah for 20-20 hindsight… Got my Enbrel shot… which went surprisingly well this time.  I’m getting used to them and the side effects weren’t even too yukky…The weird ice thing we had going on meant I worked from home so it was cool.. took my Enbrel even earlier in the day.

Thursday (YOGA day) I went to work.  I had stuff I had to get finished and I was so wanting to get it done and get to my Yoga class… I look forward to Thursdays and Yoga.  By lunch time I knew there was no way I could go to yoga.  I felt horrible and it came on relatively quickly.  I got sent home to work from home and try to get a little rest…

Friday I was working from home because I still felt crappy.  I felt bad enough I actually caved in and made a doctor appointment despite the fact that my ‘regular’ doctor wasn’t available.  It usually has to be pretty bad before I decide to cough it up and go to the doctor.    It was pretty bad.

No fever… interesting…. but when they stuck the giant ear-tip up my nose and it came back positive I was less than thrilled.  The new doctor was kind of concerned about the fact that I’m on Enbrel and I had a flu shot and still tested positive and having a compromised immune system… not so great.

Got a script for Tamiflu… and instructions to call my Rheumy (Sean… her nurse) to verify.

I made it into the Sean queue just a scooch under the “we leave at noon” deadline.  I’m not sure if I’m glad or not.  Sean’s concern was kind of scary.  He asked if I was having symptoms or if I was exposed to someone with Flu or… he wasn’t happy when I told him I tested positive already… Don’t take Enbrel shot… too late… Don’t take the next one until I feel 100% for 3 – 5 days (really?  100%?  I haven’t actually felt 100% in HOW long?)   Eesh.

Boss man gave me permission to rest the rest of the day and get ready to do maintenance Saturday.  Really?? eesh.

I slept

MASSIVE headache on Saturday.  I feel really guilty because I have been worrying bear so badly.  He was really rattled and I feel really really bad about that.  I hate when I worry him.

Today we went for half of our Sunday walk and it was great… and it was awful.  I was exhausted by the time we got home… but it was better.