Okay… I’m trying. I’m REALLY trying. I have trouble gagging down the Kool-Aid, but I’m trying. I still have trouble wrapping my head around an 8 oz glass of skim milk being 3 points but a quart of fat free greek yogurt is… none… but… that’s because I know I’m over thinking everything.
NOT that I’m not having success. I’m down 32 pounds. This morning I put on the belt that I bought in Amarillo right after we moved there in 2000. There was an amazing western wear store there and I fell in love with the belt… and I have been dragging it around for years and I never dreamed I would ever be able to wear it again… and this morning I have it on.
I went to my PCP on Tuesday. She is THRILLED with my weight loss. Thinks that I should always try to consume 750 calories a day and burn 2500 calories those same days because… well, duh… that burns fat.
It’s not sustainable
but that’s okay because f$&* you that’s why… LOSE LOSE LOSE LOSE LOSE.
Same logic as… you should really only EVER eat the 0 point foods because obviously no one will ever want to eat… beef… pork… a 1″ square of brownie… and hey… at some point I will just lose it and go completely off the rains.
Except now that I’m only fat and not OBESE, she thinks I need to completely stop at 160 – 165 pounds. Stop weight watchers. Stop losing. Just… stop.
I’m not happy with that solution and I am not going to follow her edict. MY goal is to hit what WW actually says is roughly a healthy weight for me and try to maintain that.
I know that if I reach goal (her mythical 160 to 165 number) I can become lifetime. The magical lifetimeness of WW. Everyone say OOOOOO…. Everyone say AHHHHH.
Again. My trouble is… I don’t really do sheeple very well. I spend a lot of time caught up in my own head. I’m pretty sure that is part of my Aspie-ness that isn’t a thing any more but that doesn’t change who I am.
So I did some digging.
You can never ever ever ever ever ever ever get to lifetime as long as you’re online only. HAHAHAHAHA. Silly goose, wouldn’t want someone playing the system… duh… no no no no no. You have to get within 5 pounds on online only and then pay $40 a month to get to goal… then $40 a month for the 6 or so (yeah… or 8 or 10 or whatever… hee hee hee) weeks that you have to maintain between 2 pounds over and 2 pounds under your mythical magical number. Three pounds under? HAHAHAHAHAH… reset your goal weight… reset your 6 weeks… But I’m ASSURED that at that point it is NOT all about the money.
BEEEE the sheep.
Maybe I can be a sheep. Maybe I can be a good little sheep for a couple of months.
Went to talk to the leader of the chapter we have at work yesterday. Got her version of the scoop.
Yes, you HAVE to lose your last 5 pounds in meetings (kaching). Yes, you have to maintain 2 pounds over or under for 6 consecutive weeks (kaching). Then you can be lifetime and if you want you can then continue to lose. As long as you don’t exceed your goal weight by more than 2 pounds at any weigh in in any month for the rest of your life… you can stay free (and get e-tools and get to go to the damn meetings I don’t want to go to anyway but I will have to once a month so THEY can say I am maintaining my magical mythical numbers.
OH… but if you do continue to lose… they won’t charge you for that. BUT… They will STRONGLY SUGGEST (read harp at you until you do??? ) that you lower your goal weight to exactly where you are at any given point in time.
Everyone say oooo
everyone say ahhh
One of the women who was in the meeting to be weighed has been forking out $40 a month for seven years and isn’t anywhere near goal. She’s been gaining and losing the same 20 pounds for 7 years. SEVEN YEARS… without ever getting near to goal.
I can’t imagine having to go sit through meetings once a week for SEVEN YEARS and paying $40 a month for the privilege.
And, stupid me… I went hunting. I found on our Library’s digital magazine page the Australian Weight Watchers magazine. There are, obviously differences… like kilos instead of pounds and other things that are specific to Australia. But one of the magazines has an article that talks about keeping the weight off and being lifetime and in maintenance.
I was stunned by the statistics that are in that magazine.
of over 900 lifetime members they surveyed (only 900 people… there are MILLIONS on WW… they could find 900 woo hoo people to help with the survey??? ) 94% remain BELOW THEIR INITIAL WEIGHT after one year. NOT at goal. Not kept the weight off. Below their initial weight. One year. 90% at two years. 75% at 5 years.
But this is a lifestyle, not a diet.
Another study of 2886 members, shows 87% maintaining a 10% weight loss at 5 years and 10 years. I’ve already lost more than 10% of my original weight. I will have lost roughly 25% by the time I reach what I would like to be my goal weight.
And I’m sitting here terrified about my 6 week dealy to get to “you don’t have to fork over a bunch of money any more”.
When I am getting close to infusion day I have inflammation.
Inflammation adds weight. Maybe not a lot, but it adds weight.
I know that to hit my race in February, I’m going to have to go at least one month, maybe 2 (again) at 5 weeks between infusions instead of 4. That means for TWO weeks… two weigh ins… I will have to pretty much starve for the couple days before my weigh in to not be 2.5 pounds over and then eat everything not nailed down by the next weigh in so I’m not freaking 2.5 pounds under.
But I over think things
I should just blindly sheeple to the Kool-aid trough.
I really enjoy how I’m feeling and I’m completely thrilled that forking out a crap ton of money was incentive enough to hold my own feet to the fire to do this. I’m even more thrilled that I’ve actually shaved about a minute off of my per mile time while I’m out running in the mornings (and that I can actually go running in the mornings).
I honestly wish I had been told all of the details before I started. Or maybe I wish I had dug far enough into this when I started instead of just jumping in head first after I got pissed at my PCP.
love and light