Last night (I didn’t stay awake long enough to watch it… I’m hoping to see it yet this season) on Hallmark channel was a Godwink Christmas. When I first started to hear the ads for the program, I started to (go figure) google it. I found out that, not only is it a movie for Christmas but it is also a series of books. I also determined that (go figure) the books are available in ebook format. I fought the urge valiantly for several days to not start on the series. Last night, I failed. I bought the first volume. It joined the several thousand books on my iPad. I love being able to carry a library effortlessly.
I didn’t get far (after clearing the leaves and fixing the inflatables and working around the house I was really really tired) but I did get far enough to find out what, exactly, a God Wink is. SQuire Rushnell (the author of the series) started to use the phrase Godwink to replace Godsend or coincidence. They are those moments in your day or your life when something happens to reassure of your path, or to help you at some point in your path. It’s been something that I’ve always thought about it being that kind of time when I end up taking too long getting my coffee at Sheetz and miss an accident… or when I have forgotten the fifteenth thing on my way to work which causes me to “luck in to” see one of the ships coming through.
The book… the definition… everything… got me thinking about some of my really big Godwinks that have happened over the years…
Being diagnosed with RA might not be something that someone would consider to be one. But if I hadn’t been diagnosed with RA, I might have flipped shit way more when Squirrel Girl was diagnosed with Epilepsy (and later Gastroparesis and later still RA) and later when Monkey Butt was diagnosed with Sjogrens, Epilepsy, and the nerve damage in his leg.
When I had to go hunting for what to really really do when your daughter is diagnosed with epilepsy… bang…Godwink… I met someone from the middle of Pennsylvania who’s daughter has epilepsy who is amazing and willing to share information and willing to share information and support. Later, I met someone from Canada who is well versed in Epilepsy. The PA nurse later had to come to me to get information and moral support on RA (Godwink) and the woman from Canada had to get support and information from me on RA and Gastroparesis.
Sometimes the Godwinks that go around come around.
More recently… in my Weight Watchers (sorry… I still have trouble with calling it WW) adventure… I was doing remarkably well (apparently that is unusual) with the online only adventure. I was nearing the point where I was going to be goal and was going to be lifetime. I asked the WW person on line how one goes about goal and lifetime. I found out that you can never ever ever ever ever do either of those things, officially, if you are online only. I was, originally, irate about the fact that online only people get mislead (unless you chase the information deliberately) and irritated that I would have to spend way more to join an in person meeting to finish up my adventure.
It turns out that the situation was yet another Godwink. I met some very wonderful women through those meetings. I still really don’t do people so very well… I don’t know if it will ever make me comfortable being in group… but the women who I met have brought me what I really need right now. They reach out to talk to me about Christmas lights… about pictures I take… about my adventure… about running… I have faith that some how I will be able to be able to give back the Godwinks that I’ve received.
I’m not sure what the future will bring. But… I have faith that there will be more winks in my future… in both directions.
Love and Light