Considering October

Sitting here… celery in the dehydrator… a bunch of stuff to start working up today…

I want to try my first go at dehydrating mashed potatoes… wish me luck.

October…

October is my favorite “season”… ‘color’… of the year. I worked HARD at finding a job that would bring me back northeast from Texas. Texas does not have “October”… not the way I know October… not changing colors… not frost (or frozen mud puddles). I got physically homesick for where October was really October…

And this year was a beautiful one.

But…

October is so freaking hard…

Bear died in October… just days after some of the most beautiful walks we ever took… me pushing the wheelchair…

Sky moved out in October… that was probably the best thing for Sky, by far… but it was incredibly hard for me (and today it has been 8 days…). Change is hard… Top of my gratitude list for the entire year is Facetime calls with my kid… seeing his smile…

October, this year, saw me getting my first infusion in 7 months (and I’m actually starting to feel human…. was even singing to the radio this morning… (granted, I’m singing to IHeart radio North Pole Radio and that makes me one of the people who are way way off because.. Halloween is tomorrow and then Thanksgiving… THEN time for North Pole Radio… but screw it… it makes me feel good and I haven’t felt like singing to anything for most of this year…

This morning I got up and cried happy tears because I read a comment my brother made on a Facebook post complimenting me on my Cowboy Candy that I’ve been making. Nectar of the Gods…. wow… just wow…

I need to keep this mindset… I needed a day like this…

Love and light

AprilJoy
10/30/2022

One response to “Considering October

  1. I think your post is wonderful. I am so sorry about even today about Bear’s passing. I also hope you will remember that the purpose of parenting is to send our kids out. It was so hard for us, but we had to remember it was difficult for our parents and yes we made tons of mistakes, but we made it.

    Love where you are, and who you will be. Many blessings form Indiana.

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