Wow… I’m certain I have no idea even where to start with that one. I never saw myself here five years ago… five years ago I was very scared and worried that I would end up very soon on disability. My developer friend from work has been “there” recently, as well… where the pain is so great and the depression so deep thta you believe it with all of your heart. I thought, for a while, that I was stuck at work… that I would have to settle for where I was and never really enjoy work again.
Skip ahead five years… I’ve accumulated massive debt making memories with my family. We have seen small slices of the world. I have realized that what I learned in Beijing (then in reference to squatty potties) is very true about most things. It’s not good… It’s not bad… It’s just different. I’ve seen the world through the eyes of the people who live in the world. I guess that’s part of why I really don’t understand hate… I’ve seen mothers and fathers with their kids. I’ve seen couples in love. I’ve seen lonely people wishng they weren’t so lonely. I’ve seen people alone perfectly okay with that fact. People are people. Yes, there are assholes. There are assholes everywhere. And they are what they are.
Where do I see myself in five years? At least one or two “real” books along. At least one poetry book published (probably self published but there you go). I will (if I keep thinking happy thoughts) still be in the north east… still in the house that was waiting for me… still keeping on. I will have a new rheumy that is local my house to cut down on the wasted drive time getting across town… I will be spending more time at the lake… I will be back to “racing”… and with any luck at all, I won’t be traveling for work quite as much.