Dear IF, July 27, 2017

Dear IF,

I realized, this morning, just how much stupid things seem to mean to me.  I didn’t realize that, yesterday, I finally made it to Sheetz Freak.

I really worked at it and I made it.  I got a free Sheetz Freak Status travel coffee cup.  It made me smile.  It’s a cup.  WHILE I know that cups are a thing with me (duh) I also know that this one was an awesome surprise this morning.

When I parked at work, I second guessed my walk tonight, figuring that I’m probably going to be

walking the rain so I parked as close to the work end of the parking lot.  I’m glad I did.  There was a nice, deep parking spot for me to back in to.  At the end, just at the corner of the (in my case) driver’s side rear end was Queen Anne’s lace, reminding me that I need to bloom where I’m planted.  I try to.  I really do.  Some days it is easier than others.

OH, IF, I should let you know that I “officially” started to pull together my poetry into what I’m using as a working title “Finality”.  I don’t know if it matters at all.  I don’t know if anything matters in the grand scheme of things but it’s something I have to do… I need to make a point.  Even if all I ever do is give away digital copies, it’s something that I need to do for me.  A girl can hope that maybe I can actually sell at least one copy for some money (even 99 cents) to prove to myself (just myself?… probably not) that people actually will pay for poetry even these days.

I would love to have Scrivener for my iMac for the formatting of my poetry book.  But… I can’t justify the money right now.  I need to try to ease Bear’s worries about money and leaving me in a bad way.  He will leave me in a bad way, there is no doubt about that, but… money isn’t really the way I’m worried about being left in a bad way.

Maybe after Disney I will buy myself Scrivener for my iMac.

Love and Light





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