I hate Fridays. I have always enjoyed Fridays… we live less than 2 miles by road… probably less than a mile as the crow flies from the Baseball park… Fridays, when they have a home game they have fireworks after the game… I can sit in my back yard and watch the fireworks… but I take my methotrexate and it makes me want to throw up, I’m dizzy and feel in general just crappy. I keep hoping that it will eventually I won’t feel this yukky after I take them but I keep feeling really awful.
Last night I heard the fireworks and I got up to lean on the door frame to try to watch them. They were really pretty…. but they look like they are fifty miles away and almost like I am doing a trippy drug thing (which I guess in a way I probably am….)
Everyone tells me eventually my hair won’t be so falling out and thin… that it will come back. Will I ever have a Friday that I don’t feel totally crappy?
Maybe I should consider adjusting what the doc told me to do and change the time I take the ten pills… change it to ten instead of 7… maybe then I could really enjoy a few of the wonderful things on summer Friday nights…