You have heard of those Ah-ha moments, right? The times when you realize that someone or something has been looking out for you… that you THINK you know what is best for you but maybe you are wrong… that sometimes the goals that you have (the ones you are supposed to have) are maybe not the best things for you…
The last few months it has been dawning on me that I may have been looking in the wrong direction for where I am supposed to be right now. This week I was smacked in the face with the fact that, maybe I really don’t want to turn into management if there is a chance that I would turn into what I saw as a manager… I can be a leader anywhere, but being a manager sometimes isn’t the be all and end all solution to the next step.
RA has taught me that I can’t really “do” all night conference calls coupled with all day the next day helping fight fires. I enjoy being able to do my job without having to attend endless meetings that mean I can’t stand up and stretch or take 10 minutes to go into the ‘accessible’ bathroom stall and use the space and the bars to help me bend and twist and work the stiffness out of the joints.
Squirrel’s Epilepsy has taught me that I can’t afford to be where I can’t get out of some situation if there is an emergency.
Bear’s high blood pressure has taught me that too much stress means that the life that is already too short may be way too short.
Adam’s acheys have taught me that I may pass on all of this and it is bad enough that I can pass on things that I can’t help but pass on but I don’t have to pass on the “I have to get ahead because that is what is expected” attitude.
I need to bloom where I’m planted, it is where I’m supposed to be right now and if that is where I always am…there is a reason.