It’s a Rainbow day…

Posted on January 21, 2010 | 1 comment

Okay, well, maybe  not entirely.  Fact is, it is 76 degrees outside today and a beautiful sunny day (I’m pretty sure that winter might be over here)… and I even went for a walk at lunch time to the capital building and watched the squirrels play in the live-oak trees in the sunshine…

The rainbow part dawned on me as I laid out my pills for the day this morning…

Blue and white and beige and tan and yellow and cream and orange… all in a little pile… all very colorful…

Makes me think… it is all in how I look at this… RA has added colors to my day… and it helps me notice parts of my body that I would ordinarily overlook… like the spot on the outside of my right heel and the inside of my left heel that are about the size of a half dollar that are poking at me to try to get me to slow my life down…

RA is teaching me to slow down and pay attention to ALL of the colors in life…

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Feeling Frustrated at the Limitations I Feel on Myself

Posted on January 18, 2010 | Leave a comment

I can’t type for long periods of time… and this morning I had a heck of a time using a pen to fill out paperwork at the dentist.  It was very frustrating.  I left my wider than usual pen in the car, and ended up struggling with the pen they gave me.  It was before the aleve kicked in and it was a struggle.  It convinced me that I need to be able to use my own pen when I’m this situation… the wide one I bought that fits my fingers better…

Today was my first day, too, of going to get my monthly MTX blood work.  The lab is REALLY pretty (well decorated) but there was ONE person working… she was the person drawing blood and the one dealing with the people at the desk.  Great… hello… I know it is MLK day, but you know what… this is stupid… the waiting room was full when we got there… and it was full when we left… duh… that HAS to be planning.

This week, so far, has been way better with the MTX side effects.  Yesterday we went to the zoo and had a WONDERFUL time… and I didn’t feel crappy.  Today, I didn’t feel crappy… things are reasonably good… now if the MTX would just start working its magic…

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Contemplation on a foggy day

Posted on January 14, 2010

Rainy day… foggy day… lazy feeling kind of gray day Not so bad, though.  Aleve took the edge off and even the bump on my knuckle seems to be going down just a bit.  Maybe the MTX is actually already … Continue reading →

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pushing even when i dont feel like it

Posted on January 13, 2010 | Leave a comment

Today wasone of those days when i dont feel like pushing through the gym. but i have this race to ready myself for… and it makes the afternoon more tolerable… so i push. it makes me tired but clears the cobwebs and the mtx fuzzies… so i know i need to keep it up.

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The End of a Long Week

Posted on January 10, 2010

It was what I assume is a semi-flare week… I hurt several days really badly… MTX didn’t agree with me this week at all (spent yesterday puking and sleeping)… joy joy. My knuckle is still lumpy and bruised looking… and … Continue reading →

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Rheumatoid Arthritis Support Forum

Posted on January 5, 2010 | Leave a comment

I found a place where I think I will fit in… and it looks like a wonderfully warm and helpful place… Here is where you can find Rheumamisfits.  I like that being a misfit isn’t a bad thing.

I didn’t think that my “team” needed to include a support group… particularly if that group meant that I needed to leave my house and go to meetings where I didn’t feel like a fit in even worse than I usually don’t fit in… here I found a group of people who make me welcome and where I can stop in and visit when I feel like it… when I need to… when I find myself looking for support, an ear that understands… people who are willing to listen and understand.

I highly recommend this group as a place to start… ask questions… pour through the archives until you are comfortable talking.

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Working out in the EARLY morning

Posted on January 5, 2010

I’m BACK (kind of).  4:30 this morning I hit the road for an hour’s ‘walk/run’.  3.5 miles later… sweaty and feeling human again… I hit the front porch… 35 degrees Fahrenheit in a t-shirt and hoody… sweats… and my DS … Continue reading →

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What do you do you do when a song gets stuck in your head?

Posted on January 3, 2010 | Leave a comment

Okay… it had a LIITTLE hep (thanks to … http://www.rheumamisfits.com/forums/index.php?) but it is stuck none the less…

We’re a couple of misfits
We’re a couple of misfits
What’s the matter with misfits
That’s where we fit in!

We’re not daffy and dilly
Don’t go ’round willy nilly
Seems to us kinda silly
That we don’t fit in.

We may be different from the rest
Who decides the test
Of what is really best?

We’re a couple of misfits
We’re a couple of misfits
What’s the matter with misfits
That’s where we fit in!

–(this part sung by Rudolph)–
Why am I such a misfit?
I am not just a nit wit!
I’m an adorable reindeer
Why don’t I fit in?

–(this part sung by Hermey)–
Why am I such a misfit?
I am not just a nit wit!
They can’t fire me.
I QUIT!

We may be different from the rest
Who decides the test
Of what is really best?

We’re a couple of misfits
We’re a couple of misfits
What’s the matter with misfits
That’s where we fit in!

http://www.misfittoys.net/rudolphsongs.htm

I’ve always loved “Rudolph, The-Nosed Reindeer” and I’ve always been able to relate to Rudolph and Hermey… but now I can relate in all new ways.

Why am I such a misfit?
I am not just a dumb twit
I can’t help it my joints ache
Why don’t I fit in…

Yeah, I can relate… and you know… it totally isn’t a bad thing

How about it?  Are you with me?

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17000 steps

Posted on January 2, 2010 | Leave a comment

Okay, okay… 17,105 steps… roughly 8 miles.

Today, so far, has been a good day. Walked to the library (go figure, they have exactly ONE book on RA and it was checked out) and back (stopping at 7-11 for a cup of coffee on the way home and picking up pictures at Walgreens on the way there).

The walk today, in preparation for my half marathon, was actually better than I expected. I needed to stop about 3/4 of the way through to stretch out my joints, but it was all in all very good. Now, my “toes”… the wide part of my feet… ache and my knee has a weird ouchy spot… but hey… it was my first 8 miler in what… a month? Not anything totally out of the question…

Now… bathed and dressed in sweats… I’m kicking back and enjoying the sunshine… dog is curled up at my side and the doors are open wide. Coffee is brewing (and green tea, too…) and peperoni bread is raising on the stove…

I was dizzy last night (and during the walk today some) but if I had any other effects from the mtx, I slept through it (yeah!!!). Now I’m thinking about the fact that I have to be extra extra careful not to catch anything… but otherwise, everything is looking up… it really is all about the attitude… I’m trying to fight the worries and blues… and I’m thinking that life may not be so totally bad, after all.

UPDATE!!!
Per my toy… it says I took 17733 steps (plus or minus, since I didn’t actually have it “on” ever minute). Not bad…

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Happy New Year

Posted on January 1, 2010 | 3 comments

Sitting here… furry little dog at my feet… contemplating… everything

It is interesting, the first day that I start taking my methatrexate is the first day of the year. I’m trying to figure out if that is just the way my luck is running or if it is cosmic humor… I think it probably will end up being a foreshadowing of the year to come.

I’m scared. The doctor warned me that I’m liable to have a less than fantastic weekend. I really don’t want to get sick in an attempt to get well.

5 am this morning, I was up before the sun with DS on a walk (more like a mosey… but this morning, mosey was just what I needed). We have a ‘typical’ walk that we go on when we walk together (we end up doing about 3 miles… we end up at a cement picnic table and bench usually chatting). This morning we were going to pick up a dozen donuts at the new donut store (kind of defeats the purpose of the walk… ). Who knew donut stores take off for new years morning. This store usually opens at 5… we were there at the store at about 6… no dice… sigh. so we mosied a bit further past the ball park until it got cold enough walking in just a hoody and not generating any body heat that we opted to go home. Called home to get a ride (promply took a detour to get donuts at the grocery store). It was 36 degrees… not really hoody weather.

I’ve been forcing the smooshy swollen achey out of my knuckles. Hot bath helped with that… but it is tight and sore still.

Now… I’m working on trying to get computers fixed while I still feel like getting the stuff done… Not going great. Probably not going to be in the mood to deal with Dell support tomorrow… but then, I’m usually not in the mood to be talked down to by some guy…

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